Grooving

The bodies move to the beat,
To the continuous rhythm they gyrate,
Reminisce about the 90's heat,
All around the sounds vibrate.

-Haze

Yeah, I am reviving the early 90's music that accompanied me through me late teens..TLC, SWV, BOYZ 2 MEN, TAKE THAT, COLOR ME BADD, MONICA, SHANICE....n a few others..my taste was mainly hip hop n R n B...that's when I commenced on the independence track...so you can estimate how ancient I am...heh..


ANGER

Try as I might,
I cannot. But spite.

Spite over-rules my every being,
until all is completely seeing.

Seeing the light within me
is all I ask to be.
To be free of the anger
-that consumes my being
until all is completely seeing.

The fire within me
consumes me to be
consuming over everyone else � you see?

Have you ever been so consumed
with anger so great that you fumed?

Where does this anger come
moreover, what does it ask for ransom?
It asks for my soul,
my every being and all.

The anger does not stop
until everything is consumed to the top.

From the tips of my toes
to the top of my head
it swirls and bubbles in me instead.

I wish that instead it would disappear,
however, every time I ask that, it would reappear.

Its ruthless rebellion within me,
asks me not to flee.
It asks me to give in and consume
my life, my soul, and everything.
Until all I have left is � nothing.

Not even the memory of me
-will be left.
Only remnants of someone
that was once in a drift.
I do not want that , Do I?

by Melissa Shepherd



Rest

The mien in an interlude,
Away from life's constant bustle,
Breathing in of freshness include,
Tranquility before the next tussle..

-Haze

I am given a rest from the madness of school........ahhhhhhh.....but piles of marking to complete...haizzz....there was a conflict with my mum the last few days....something that is too private to disclose........at times, mum n I don't agree on matters.....n that's where it leaves me dispirited.........she's never a pillar where I could lean on.......after all she's still my mum......biological mum at that......if I were to compare between her and my stepmom(who actually happens to be just a few years older than me), I wish my stepmum was my real mother.....at least I can relate to her......pfffffffffffffttt.......I know that I shouldn't be doing that.....however......ahh..no use to juxtapose.......hope Allah gives me the pertinacity to face this.....hmmm...


A migraine

This mind is going nowhere,
With words and phrases to remember,
How much more can this entity bear?
Just to get to the top and clamber...

-Haze

Pursuing this degree thingy is a laborious hurdle for me to leap.....I've not even completed revising this language use and language learning thingy...shuckss...there's too much to input.......should I gripe?.....feel super low......"It Must Have Been Love" is a good one....hmmm...(me still with OH k)...heh...


Another year

Another year adds to this life,
Remembrance for this length of time,
Throughout the years that I strive,
I look forward to the time that you're mine...

-Haze

A simple yet the finest b'day celebration with OH...let the pictures tell the Saturday's event....I gotta hit the notes to revise...with the fever accompanying me.....ergghh..n to Thea, Azian, Eton and Hus...thanks for the b'day wishes.... :O).....have a super weekend mon amiesss...


A sumptuous spread to celebrate yet another year to my existence 



Floods of human faces,
Awash this huge meet,
All carry their own traces,
Winning to their own beat...

-Haze

Today was the SHHK Annual Sports Meet ....five schools competing against each other, vying for top places and holding those trophies...heh.whilst taking care of the prefects,all kinds of odours tickled me nose, incessant noise pollution, human emotions display, a myriad of colours exploded.......the senses absorbing and at times resisting.....most of the insipidity in me evaporates instantaneously.....blithe invades me....can't describe it.....hmm


yeah....a crumpled teacher's face...heh...it was scorching hot oteyy....the good-looking bespectacled dude is Zhi Kai.....a very cooperative and humble boy...always offering to carry me bulky books and things...haizz...and next to him is Zhong Hao..mischievious but a practical boy....thank goodness teaching p4's again... :O). 



with one of the P4 athletes...she won 2nd place in the 200 m girls..I'm proud of her....wow....she has wiry legs....n a very chatty gal too..amidst constant reprimands from moi...heh(macam mak nenek budak pompan ni..pepotpepotpepot..albeit the bubbliness)....each pupil has the talent and potential...hm 



Fatigued

Stabbing its fangs so hard,
Fatigue looms upon me,
Making this body into a retard,
How could this suddenly be?

-Haze

ARrrrrggggggggggggggggHHHHHHHH.....this is all I could muster.....can this register me being inane?...shuckss..


Reflection

Look myself in the mirror,
A reflection appears,
Will it be clearer?
Arrogance is my worst fear...

-Haze

Avoidance?Am I that repugnant?


Unsure

This feeling heightens,
Clouded and complicated,
Will the fate brightens?
or let this self be irritated?

-Haze

I will not let meself be caught up with the past....I have my own future to carve....LET IT GO....I am holding on to that reign that I promised meself...hope that the strength is with me...hope so..


This is how I feel at the moment... 



Afterwards bought a CD...yep..one of my favourite movies....watched the finale quite a few times...shioookkk 



Changi beach after an urgent family meeting.......albeit the apparent pollution.....car's with Abah....felt bad coz had promised a bloggermate to head to the zoo...haizz...but encountered a family problem......shesshh...why did it had to happen???????? 



Admire

In the horizon the skyline,
Stars above it glittering,
the atmosphere so fine,
merrines in the mind sauntering.

-Haze


A romp at the Singapore River at night before the public holiday....yep..absorbing the sights and the bussle of the area....dropped by Lau Pa Sat to indulge the beckoning of succulent ikan pari sambal, satay(all sorts emerge, even prawn satay-furrows the eyebrows) and bittersweet limejuice.....heavenly... 



Caught

Caged and stifled,
The four walls pressing,
Voice ultra muffled,
The grip never releasing....

-Haze

hmmm...tagged?...hmm...should I resist to it?...or go with the flow...four jobs that I had dabbled in..hmm..1) production technician....2) maintenance technician....3) teacher.....4)?????......four movies that I would gawk at...1) Sleepless in Seattle...2) Notting Hill....3) Dead Poets Society...4) The Goonies...I declare that I am an adventure freak....can't help it...(acts innocent eyed).....four places that I've dwelled..hmm...1) Duxton Plain aka Cantonment area......2) Bedok South(misses that place, spent the childhood there).....3)Kaki Bukit....4) Bedok Reservoir......four tv shows or channels that I am addicted...1) CSI....2) The Simpsons.....3) HBO.......4) Animal Planet.....four places that I've explored and yet to explore....hmmm... 1) Pulau Ubin.....2) Peninsular Malaysia... ..3) Australia..haizz......4) Still unsure....in the plans...heh....four websites that I drop by....1) chattyhus........2) LJ.........3) Thea...yeah I probe a lot...:OP.....4) Edumail account....four places that I would aspire to be...1) Maldives.....2) Parasailing....haizz.....3) Somewhere that I had always wanted to be....rather not disclose it...heh....4) Changi.....phewww......enuff mentioned...


Somewhere

A place that my soul dreams to be,
lying on the sand with the waves coming in,
my mind runs from the darkness free,
the body cleanses from worldy sin.

-Haze

Went for a kenduri at OH's abode yesterday......getta mingle with his side....it's like a routine whenever a gal gets to know the boy's side.....heh.....but I am not the same as I was like in the past....learning to socialise and comprehend the knicks and knacks of conducting myself around people....it is tedious...hmmm...assisted in cooking....albeit the zilch knowledge in preparing food....heh...I am learning....everything begins from scratch.... only time will tell...


Almond Fruit Cocktail Jelly....yummylicious 



The songs from Class 95FM accompanied me whenever I am at home or in school doing me work...the deejays are smooth talkers and the music list are super cool! =O) those who loike and are addicted to this channel, raise up your hands... =OP



Content

Life is only once,
It is a short duration,
Always use every chance,
Self completion gives elation.

-Haze

Am I content with life?Abah, my siblings, Mama and OH..my loved ones..hmmm...should I be satiated about the car that is solely under my name?Should I be glad of the move from MTS to TNS?Should I be jubilant to anticipate the Big Day in the near future?....I dunno.....I surmise that I am....I don't want to look back at the past....just the present and the future...that matters the most......I shouldn't be griping at teensy issues that crop up....as my bosom friend, Geok Lan, mentioned a long time ago, "Take and let go".....this has been my mantra eversince.....and always.....


Rarely Comest Thou


Rarely, rarely comest thou,
Spirit of Delight!
Wherefore hast thou left me now
Many a day and night?
Many a weary night and day
'Tis since thou art fled away.

How shall ever one like me
Win thee back again?
With the joyous and the free
Thou wilt scoff at pain.
Spirit false! thou hast forgot
All but those who need thee not.

As a lizard with the shade
Of a trembling leaf,
Thou with sorrow art dismayed;
Even the sighs of grief
Reproach thee, that thou art not near,
And reproach thou wilt not her.

Let me set my mournful ditty
To a merry measure;--
Thou wilt never come for pity,
Thou wilt come for pleasure;
Pity then will cut away
Those cruel wings, and thou wilt stay.

I love all that thou lovest,
Spirit of Delight!
The fresh Earth in new leaves dressed,
And the starry night;
Autumn evening, and the morn
When the golden mists are born.

I love snow and all the forms
Of the radiant frost;
I love waves, and winds, and storms,
Everything almost
Which is Nature's, and may be
Untainted by man's misery.

I love tranquil solitude,
And such society
As is quiet, wise, and good;
Between thee and me
What difference? but thou dost possess
The things I seek, not love them less.

I love Love--though he has wings,
And like light can flee,
But above all other things,
Spirit, I love thee--
Thou art love and life! O come!
Make once more my heart thy home!


by: Percy Bysshe Shelley


Had a fantabulous break a few days ago...vanilla nut ice cap while OH had Coit Tower..and .caught a movie..to my opinion, the sequel was mediocre...afterwards, decided to head to a food court to have some drinks...however, when I noticed the macaroni soup listed on the menu at one of the stalls, I just had to order and consumed it...yep...macaroni is one of me favourite dishes, in whatever form it is....heh...hmm...I miss my friends....maybe I should meet up with them to reminisce about the old times...haizz...ya, Azian, my dearest friend , smsed me out of the blue yesterday....I've known her since the heydays......about 14 years ago..we had just commenced working at a factory..naive and gullible young ones...carefree and single....and now she's a devoted mother of one...hmm...as for me..I can't predict the outcome..maybe it's on the cards....who knows ehh...