Friday, December 08, 2006cuppycake blogged at:6:14 PM

Reflection

Reflection

Seeing myself in the mirror,
The pallid appearance exhibits,
It's too clouded to make it clearer,
Why do I do the things that God forbids?

-Haze

I was alone and walked aimlessly yesterday from Bugis to City Hall,trying to find a crystal light in my bleak life..desperately wanted to call my close friends but I did not...I did not want to perturb them as they have problems of their own to attend...thoughts crossed my mind.....the impediments that had crossed and still cross my journey....I tried to hide the tears....the passers-by would have thought I had gone inane.....I did not want to go home ever....just run away from them all......my faith was depleting......I questioned and pondered over my life......WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!...my loved ones tried to contact me..my cellphone was switched off...I took the bus back to my place.....and all of a sudden, I was at the mosque.....what was I doing there?....I was astounded...I was sitting right at the back..Ustazah Habsah Senin arrived and she started her preachings to the crowd of women......her voice soothed my spirit.....her words stabbed at my heart......everything around me was inanimate.....astaghfirullahala'azimmmm.....I uttered it under my breath....I leave it to Allah to drive the path that I should take...only Him...