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Sunday, November 29, 2009cuppycake blogged at:1:11 AM

WHY???

I am on a hectic schedule now...clearing the clutter kept for the past 6 years in my bedroom...never did my room produced 4 bags of old paraphernalia...wow!...and the thoughts of my Abah kept coursing through my mind...I need to be thrilled looking forward to my big day....what more sacrifices do I need to deliver?..I sincerely love you, Abah...doesn't my future matter to you, Abah? Allah is the only One who knows the real truth...how it hurts me to see you, Abah, treating me coldly just because of a senseless incident which is a major farking flaw to the other family....how long must I delay my own future which I am trying to achieve.....is it so wrong for me to possess that happiness?

WHY
Abah, you have to tell me why?
That you see me very bad,
All the time making me cry?
Hurtful words that shouldn't be said...

-Haze

If only you can see this post, if only.....or are you viciously blinded by 'them'..how many mistakes that your wife and other children do, you will be siding with them...and no matter how righteous adik and I are this time, will always be a BIG error to you......why are you so bitter, Abah?...WHY???????

Thursday, November 26, 2009cuppycake blogged at:5:15 PM

WHY?

I miss my Abah....however, because of just a minor incident at the clinic last week, it is a big RUCKUS to the other family. Do I need to make it clear to them?Why should I?Damn it, I was oblivious of my surroundings......I was really ill with the ringing in my ears, thoughts of work and my Abah being ill......a small matter turning into bigger proportions.....what the farkkkk!I just want to be left alone.....I was not in the wrong...why should they accuse me of something that was not even justified....my BIG DAY IS NEARING for heaven's sake....can't they simply give me the happiness that I deserve all this while...all I wanna know is WHYYYYYY????...

Tuesday, November 24, 2009cuppycake blogged at:4:52 PM

Resent

I resent the attitudes of my father's other children by his Indonesian wife...they are absolutely downright insolent towards my family...I don't give a rat's arse if they are so brusque towards me...but all hell broke lose when they were hostile to my younger brother....may Allah have mercy on them.....because if they continue with their unruly behaviours, I will have no other alternative but to fly off the handle at those two teenagers!Well, it simply stems from their mother's upbringing eh...

Thursday, November 19, 2009cuppycake blogged at:2:51 AM

I can't LIVE

LIVE

All the vigour dissipated,
As if I cannot live,
The body so emaciated,
Not a single breath I heave,

-Haze

I am on 2 days medical leave...I wish to be left alone...it has nothing to do with the BIG DAY.....it has to do with my work...yeah the posting was rejected...and right now, I am utterly dejected....all I can say is FARRRKKKK to it.

Saturday, November 14, 2009cuppycake blogged at:6:43 AM

Everytime

Everytime

Lost in the strangest land,
Never realising the make believe,
Where is that helping hand?
Without it is causing the grief...

-Haze

Thursday, November 05, 2009cuppycake blogged at:10:55 PM

Mercy

This is a genuine story,
Of a desperate fixated being,
Falling apart really gory,
The psyche on the verge of dying....

-Haze

All About Me

Haz or Haze. An ordinary individual born in 1973. As for relationshipwise, no comment. Mould and motivate the young into morally civic minded beings.
Music,nature, poetry and movies are the indulgences. Blue and turqoise are the craze. Currently more active at multiply.com

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Oh Allah, have mercy on me in the name of the great Quraan, make it for me a guide and light, And guidance and mercy, Oh Allah, make me remember that of it which I have forgotten, Make me know of it, that which I have become ignorant of, And make me recite it in the hours of the night and day, And make it an argument for me, O sustainer of all the worlds, Oh Allah, set right my faith which is the safeguard of all my affairs, And set right for me my world affairs wherein is my living, An set right for me my hereafter on which depends my after life, And make my life a source of abundance of every good, And make my death a source of protection for me, protecting me from every evil, Oh Allah! Make the best part of my life the end of it, And the last of my deeds the best one, And the best of my days, the day I meet you, Oh Allah! I ask of you the best whilst living, And ask for a good death, And not a shameful or embarassing return, Oh Allah! I ask you for the best affair, The best suplication, The best success, The best knowledge, The best deed, The best reward, The best life, And The best death. Keep me upright, Make my scale heavy, confirm my faith, raise high my status(in the hereafter), Accept my Salah, And forgive my sins, I ask you for high positions in Paradise, Oh Allah! I ask you obligation of your mercy, And determination of your forgiveness, And the peace of every sin, And the booty of every reward, And Winning Paradise, And surviving from Hell, Oh Allah! make the result of all our affairs good, And deliver us from the disgrace of this world and the torment of the hereafter, Oh Allah! Distribute between us the heedfullness necessary to come between us and the commision of wrong against you, The obedience necessary for us to gain admission into paradise, And the unswerving faith necessary to minimise for us the tribulations in this world, Oh Allah! Allow us to enjoy our hearing, our sight, and our strength for as long as we live, And make that enjoyment our heir(so that the people that we have befitted could pray for us), and place our vengeance on those that have wronged us, And give us victory over our enemies, And try us not in our faith, Neeither make this world our greates concern, or the extent of our knowledge, Nor give power over us to those who would oppress us, Oh Allah! Leave no sins of ours in this assembley unforgiven, Nor any grief without being relieved, Nor any debt without being paid, Nor any difficulty in this life or the hereafter without being facilitated, Oh the most merciful of all that is Merciful, Our Lord! Give us the good of this world and the hereafter, And save us from the torment of the fire, Oh Allah! send peace and salutation upon Muhammed (PBUH) and his family, his companions and those that follow him, AMEEN!

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